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Clean your tears, Yuzu. I don't need your tears ruining the coffee.

[ His words were followed up with with a shake of his head, soon leaning over to give her some tissues. He might as well stop fighting his emotions, knowing that leaving unspoken emotions was a very, very horrible idea.

He eventually pushes a coffee towards her. Exactly how she liked it. ]

Enjoy, my little fruit. [ He adds a knowing smile. ]

Eh...? Little...

[ ‘Little Fruit’

She’d been so embarrassed by that nickname... only ever being fine with it whenever they were alone, but freaking out whenever he said it in the presence of others.

An embarrassing child nickname from when she was... was apparently 8 years old.

Her hands tremble uncontrollably as she reaches forward to hold the cup. The smell... she was never one before this to be particular about her coffee, but since then... her taste toward them had gone up considerably.

And this smell... she recognized it immediately. It was... her favorite blend that he’d made her every morning... ]

Ah... aah...

[ She puts it down, quickly trying to use a tissue to wipe away her tears... but it’s no use. They keep running, and the tears don’t stop.

She knows it was fake.

They were simply... cast into those rolls.

But her feelings... they were real. She doesn’t want to ignore them... she doesn’t want to lose them. ]

Da...

[ When she looks up at him, her tears unending (though she does make sure the coffee is safely away from them), she can barely finish saying the word before her voice cracks and she sobs. ]

Edited 2021-03-24 07:19 (UTC)

[ He hears that tiny voice inside him to go and comfort her, just how he had wished Lucifer had done. Sandalphon has to fight the urge, but he knows deep down that he cannot. He wishes he could hop the counter, but instead he leaves the counter unattended for a time, soon pulling her in for a hug.

A very awkward, stilted hug, but it was a hug nonetheless. ]

Cry. It does you no good to keep it all in.

[ Pot calling the kettle black, his harsher self said, but he elects to ignore him now. Sandalphon had a duty to fulfill for the moment, and that was taking care of Yuzu.

He wonders if Lucifer is proud of him at this moment. ]

[ She feels his arms wrap around her... and she immediately moves forward and hugs him back in an almost desperate fashion as she lets it all out. She sobs loudly, crying into him... it's a weird feeling, considering that she's hugging a slime... but she doesn't care.

Still, amongst her wails, her voice barely squeaks out... ]

Dad...

[ She still wasn't even sure if she should call him that, considering her family back home. She already has a dad, and her relationship with Sandalphon as a father was false...

But... she needed to say it at least once... even if her voice is too drowned out by her own sobs to hear it. ]

[ Sandalphon isn't exactly sure how to express it. All he knows is that he's grown explicitly close to the girl, and this was one of the many forms his other self made comforting her easy. He was simply following his memories, so to speak. But he knows that Yuzu calling him 'dad' was sincere, and denying that reality would make him no better than his past self, refusing to believe the facts because of some blind need to hate.

After a while, the slime pulled away. ]

Do you feel a little bit better after that?

[ She's still breathing with small gasps, wiping the tears off of her face with her feathers as he pulls away. ]

Y-Yeah... thanks...

[ She's still dealing with all kinds of emotions right now, but letting it all out with a good cry made her feel a little better. ]

S-Sorry, I... I needed that...

[ Now that she's called him 'dad' one last time... she's honestly not sure what to call him now. ]

[ Sandalphon easily pulls away, looking over Yuzu just in case. He catches himself, wondering if he really did still continue seeing her as a daughter, even if he didn't see himself as such now. He wonders if Yuzu would even continue calling him 'dad'? So many unanswered questions. ]

It's alright. [ He debates even continuing, but he does. ] ... I honestly hope you didn't mind that. It was the only thing I could do in the moment.

O-Of course I don't mind! I...

[ She takes a deep breath, trying to calm herself down. She can still feel her eyes watering...

She doesn't know what to do. She doesn't know how to feel. The feeling when she heard him call her his little fruit, just like before... that feeling of relief and happiness... ]

I-I guess... you know what we need to talk about, right...?

[ What happens now?

On one hand, the maelstrom of feelings within her chest when he called her by the nickname he used as her dad... they were real, and she didn't want to let go of them.

But equally so... she remembers her family back home, her real family... though it's not like Shuzo wasn't just 'cast' into being her father as well.

Still, she'd accepted that... she knew in her heart that Shuzo was her father, Ray be damned.

But not this happened, and she feels like her heart is going to split in two. ]

Of course I do. I'm no moron.

[ A family...

Sandalphon never had one. He was created by Lucifer, as a primal beast-- no primal beast was made in hopes of ever being part of a family. They were created to fill a purpose and that was that. No frills, no decorations, nothing. Just to be part of a system that governed the Sky Realm

But that was the thing. Sandalphon was a primal that was made without a purpose outside of being a spare. He was unsure if his role of a father in Yuzu's life back in the illusion was worth continuing.

Uncertainty of being a father in general was prevalent within him, completely unaware as to how it would change him, both fundamentally and towards others. He wasn't the primal beast that reigned over familial love. A lot of this confused him. He's unsure of many things, but that uncertainty hasn't stopped him from trying.

So with a deep breath, he asks. ]

If you no longer want to see me as your father, and go our separate ways from here, then I understand.

N-No! I don't want that, I...

[ She bites her bottom lip, biting back the tears. Go their separate ways, huh...

Of course she doesn't want that. ]

The... the feelings I had... even if our lives there weren't real, I want to believe that those were...

U-Unless... you don't want that...

... I do want them to be real.

[ He felt weird, admitting the truth as easily as he did, but that was that, and he didn't plan on backtracking now. ]

I want them to be real, because there I finally understood what it was to actually have a family. Primals don't have that luxury, and I was always curious, but I never got a straight answer... until there, that is.

I don't want that ruined. But I asked, just so you knew you had a way out.

[ She inhales sharply, but she can't help the relieved smile on her face. He... he wants it to be real... ]

I'm glad... thank you...

[ She takes a deep breath, as well as a sip of her coffee to calm her nerves a bit. Huh, her taste in coffee carried over from her time over there... ]

The truth is... it really hurt to find out that it wasn't real... I still remember how I felt when you took me in.

[ She looks him in the eyes. Though she's calmed herself a bit with hearing that he wants it to be real as well... she can still feel her heart pounding in her chest, so her eyes still look almost pleading. ]

It just... it just hurt even more when I remembered my family back home because... I still love and care about them, but... our relationship is still real to me...! I don't want to choose between them, I...!

[ Maybe it's selfish of her. Greedy, even, to want to keep her familial bond both with her family back home and Sandalphon... but... ]

I can't say I understand your turmoil, however, it is as I said. If you need a way out, to go back to the way we were, the door will remain available. I don't wish to saddle you with unneeded conflict.

[ There's no use lying; the matter of the fact was, Sandalphon could never understand why family ran so deep within skydwellers, and even the other monsters here. All he knew was that it was usually blood that tied them together. ]

However, if you want my opinion? Why do you need to keep your family at home separate from our relationship here? I see no betrayal here, nor do I see you abandoning them for the sake of living guilt free. All that should matter is that you have a support system in place.

Eh...?

[ She'd... never thought of it like that. ]

I-I don't know, I...

[ No betrayal... she likes that, she wants that... ]

D-Do you mind if I... talk about myself and back home for a moment...?

[ ...the truth is that there is a reason why she thought that it had to be separate, that she had to choose. ]

Go right ahead.

[ He keeps working on his own cup, now starting the brewing process. ]

Maybe it'll enlighten me on how family works, in the first place...

Edited 2021-04-13 01:42 (UTC)

[ She sighs, looking down at her bracelet with her hands on the table. ]

Truth is, I... technically don't have a family. I only exist because a girl named Ray split herself into four different girls to save the world... and I'm just one of those girls. I thought I was related to my dad, but... no, he was just someone chosen to be my dad when I appeared as a baby... which explains why I don't really have an existing mom either.

[ She grips her cup a little tighter. ]

But... my dad, he... he still treated me like his daughter even after we found out about that. Even if we weren't really related, we... we were still family.

[ She sniffs a bit, rubbing a bit of tears away from her eyes. ]

I guess I just... felt that if I've already chosen one dad even if we aren't related, could I really choose another...?

[ She looks back up at him, her eyes watering again. ]

But... you're right, I shouldn't have to keep this separate...! If you choose who your family is, then... I want both you and everyone back home to...!

[ Crap... she's making herself emotional again, so she quickly wipes her face as tears start to fall again. ]

If it comes to it... if I ever meet your other family, that is, I'll come to accept them as your family. It's simple.

[ Sandalphon listened intently, and that was his answer. Yuzu was his daughter in anything but name, and if befriending any other family, if that was in their future, Sandy would do it. It was for the best. ]

For what it's worth, you having other family won't bother me. Your happiness is what matters, in the end.

Really...?

[ Oh, the tears are coming back again and she can't stop them... ]

Then... can we still... can we still be...?

[ It wounds like less of a question and more of a plea. ]

I didn't suggest anything otherwise, did I?

[ Sandy was not a liar, after all. What he does do is pass her another tissue. ]

So do me a favor and stop crying. Unless those are happy tears, then in which case do continue.

[ He's both teasing and honest. ]

Y-Yeah...!

[ She continues crying, of course, since it's happy tears... tears with don't stop even as she tries to wipe away her tears with the tissue. She honestly just... felt like a weight had been lifted off of her shoulders.

Sandy was her other new dad... even if not by blood, but that was nothing new to her. ]

This situation brings up a question though.

[ RIP, Yuzu Hiiragi. ]

In the other Ryslig, you were dating Yuya, were you not? Would I be wrong in assuming that relationship carried over here as well...? Or was it already happening?

[ Dadphon does not play. ]

[ She almost spits out her drink. ]

Y-Yuya!? D-Dating!? U-Um...!

[ Crap, her face goes bright red. She hadn't even thought about that, but... they really were in a full relationship back there, weren't they? The thought causes happiness to bubble up inside her, but before that... the embarrassment that causes her face to turn bright red. ]

I-I mean, I'd love for it to carry over, but we haven't really talked about it yet...

[ Mostly because he had died. ]

[ So it was true. He's going to have to ask Yuya about it too. ]

Do take care of that, or I'm going to do it for you.

T-Take care of it!? W-What does that mean!?

[ Oh god, the whiplash is hitting her hard. She's not mentally prepared to deal with this... and frankly, she never is in the first place. Her face may as well be as pink as her hair at this point. ]

[ Sandy just smiles, the smile hiding a lot more than just a good mood. ]

You'll find out.

E-Ehhhhh!?

[ W-What does that mean!? Back in that alternate universe, he hadn't exactly been the most supportive of her relationship with Yuya because of his incredibly high standards... ohhhhh...

Her face is bright red, utterly flustered and unsure what to do. He wouldn't try and intimidate him out of dating her, would he!? ]

[ He doesn't say it, but he does think that Yuya's a good fit for her-- once he gets his own head out his ass. He moves the subject along. ]

Finish that coffee, little fruit. Don't let it get cold.

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